Queen of wishful thinking

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 04:14:17 GMT

Last post of 2008- i figured i didnt write all year- ill get it all in now....
Some 2008 moments.

October is a special month for me.
-Breast Cancer 3day
-My Anniversary with PJ
-I Got engaged

Here is Our Story:
On our 2 year anniversary October 6, 2008 PJ had me get out of work early. He was taking me to the restuarant we had our first date. Waterworks is behind the art museum in Philadelphia. He told me he called to make sure they would still be open by the time we got there. It was around 9:30 we pulled up, parked and instead of going right to the restaurant he wanted to go check out the view under a gasebo over looking boat house row. He began to talk and I didn't know what was happening. As i look away from him thinking "Oh My God.." I turn around to see him on his knee, our restaurant behind him along with a HUGE pink ribbon all in lights on the Amtrack building for breast cancer awareness month (philly is lit up pink for october). I was crying and went down on my knee with him because i couldnt stand up!! We were so excited and have been every since!!! The ribbon has alot of meaning. My mother passed away in 2002 from Breast Cancer. This image of the ribbon gave me a feeling that she was there with us, and letting me know everything will be okay. The area behind and around the art museum has alot of meaning as well. All the mothers day breast cancer walks are held there, PJ ran in the Philadelphia Marathon last year, and I walk in the Breast Cancer 3day which on the second day travels around that area. and we also have our restaurant...which...on October 6th was closed when we got there...

sign our guest book on theknot.com

Breast Cancer 3 Day 2008

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 05:47:42 GMT

The Breast Cancer 3 day has been the best weekend ever in the past 2 years. Here is to 2009!!!

you can donate!!
www.the3day.org/goto/supportalex
www.myspace.com/3daywalkers

December 19, 2005

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 05:37:45 GMT

i was reading back on the past and because i saw Tigan this past weekend, i felt this needed to be posted...

03:16 pm: These are The Days....
"i didnt mean to do it :*( and this is the reason as to why i hate sabre...its scary!

i love you, dont hate me! hope your feeling better!"- My LJ One Year Ago Today

I LOVE Chris Galasso!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-So this weekend was Fantastic!
-Jeff came and the drill is making me really excited about this season! I still dont know how he does it, but he's he's something!
-i would like to thank Dan Hughes for buying my benadryl because i almost died. I knew it wasnt "in my head." so thank you! i will never take excedrin again:)
-Chris Romann is the Best-that dance is hard core and i love it.
-apparently I'm getting more action from Nick then i have ever gotten in my life.... haha! i love you.
-i love Stacey and how fugly she is! staring at her because she is fugly gets really fun when you dont move for a good 4sets. Right Stacey? I LOVE YOU!hahah
-you have no idea how excited i am about having dance this year!
-Cindy Lewandowski is my BFF. its a good time we are near eachother in the "couple section" me, her and Kristine are cute!
-my body is killing me, but again, its worth it.
-i asked dal to come to winterfest...its a month away and she said "she has to work"- ugh she can take off..the sched. wasnt made up yet. she's full of shit and it pisses me off
-i've been at school since 9am...and im still going strong. this is my "study break"
-I LOVE THE NEW APEX WEBSITE
-you have no idea how happy i am that this semester is almost over!!!!!!!!!
-Heeeeeeey Ssssailor!!!!!!

i just studied for psychology with the lady in my class. she is so nice- and im happy because we are both going to be in the same psych next semester, so yay i have a friend! hey, and her name is Cyndy!

for now...thats it. until i think of more to say, Peace Out!

Current Mood: drained

03:16 pm: These are The Days....
"i didnt mean to do it :*( and this is the reason as to why i hate sabre...its scary!

i love you, dont hate me! hope your feeling better!"- My LJ One Year Ago Today

I LOVE Chris Galasso!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-So this weekend was Fantastic!
-Jeff came and the drill is making me really excited about this season! I still dont know how he does it, but he's he's something!
-i would like to thank Dan Hughes for buying my benadryl because i almost died. I knew it wasnt "in my head." so thank you! i will never take excedrin again:)
-Chris Romann is the Best-that dance is hard core and i love it.
-apparently I'm getting more action from Nick then i have ever gotten in my life.... haha! i love you.
-i love Stacey and how fugly she is! staring at her because she is fugly gets really fun when you dont move for a good 4sets. Right Stacey? I LOVE YOU!hahah
-you have no idea how excited i am about having dance this year!
-Cindy Lewandowski is my BFF. its a good time we are near eachother in the "couple section" me, her and Kristine are cute!
-my body is killing me, but again, its worth it.
-i asked dal to come to winterfest...its a month away and she said "she has to work"- ugh she can take off..the sched. wasnt made up yet. she's full of shit and it pisses me off
-i've been at school since 9am...and im still going strong. this is my "study break"
-I LOVE THE NEW APEX WEBSITE
-you have no idea how happy i am that this semester is almost over!!!!!!!!!
-Heeeeeeey Ssssailor!!!!!!

i just studied for psychology with the lady in my class. she is so nice- and im happy because we are both going to be in the same psych next semester, so yay i have a friend! hey, and her name is Cyndy!

for now...thats it. until i think of more to say, Peace Out!

Current Mood: drained

2008

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 04:44:04 GMT

I cant believe 2008 is over. so much happened!! Lets see what i can remember-
-dal leaving for medical school- wooo!!!
-moving out!
-821a Country Club PKWY <3
-beach trips
-the end of working at the 99
-the begining of working for Arthur Murray-best decision of my life
-finishing my last band camp
-Vicky's wedding
-seeing old friends
-getting engaged- October 6th, 2008
-The Breast Cancer 3day and the many fundraisers!!
-Ballroom lessons at society hill
-spanish class
-finishing rutgers!
-teaching highlands indoor guard and finishing 5th in A class
-Training for the 3 day
-spending time with friends.
-Kate's wedding
and i know so much has happened...but for now....

Here is to a great 2009!
Happy New Year!!

:( pictures

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 16:37:54 GMT

wow i never use this thing, but I know some of you still do...
if you can, I need your help-

My home computer and Laptop both crashed and I am left with..well...nothing in reguards to my memories----- I am a huge photography fan and well...ALL of my pictures are gone! with digital images i usually just upload them on the computer and thats it. I have nothing printed out....so what i need from you all, if you can help are pictures from thing or place you have been with me at. (i dont need or want to be in them...i just want the pictures)
I have No Apex pix left and i am so sad about it! Vacations, drunk times. lol nothing- help me out if you can!

my email is coffeebean36@yahoo.com
or you can send them on here of facebook or myspace.
thanks!

I WANNA GOOOOO!

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 05:51:30 GMT

Dance!

Thu, 16 Nov 2006 14:41:13 GMT

I thought Mario aka Slater from Saved By The Bell was going to win Dancing with the Stars...but he didnt! Im glad Emmitt Smith Won!!! i liked Cheryl and think its cool that she won last season, and this season- shes aweomse!! ha ima geek...

My Dream is to be a Ball Room Dancer! how hott would that be!?

And This Weekend I Saw....

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 18:47:11 GMT

these arnt recent pix-but i saw them!!!!!

I Love and Miss These People Like You Wouldnt Believe!

Happy Birthday.....

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 23:22:11 GMT

<3 Happy Birthday Mom <3

i cant believe tomorrow will be 4 years.

Pix

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 23:19:36 GMT

Halloween was a good time- 99 work party along with other bunnies...its almost as if they work there too...

This Halloween was a good time....

I miss these people!

Tue, 10 Oct 2006 12:45:44 GMT

- it was so nice out yesterday...i spun in my driveway with my ipod.

- i was flipping through the channels around 10:50pm and heard something..so i flipped bach to abc and sure enough, at the end of CSI:Miami was the song "Hide and Seek"...i started to cry! ha im a geek. anyway. i did and because i heard that i went to my room..got the WGI 2005 DVD from Krista and watched it for an hour..

- Traffic going to school today was a mess and i hated every minute of it!

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 23:27:55 GMT

...i had to make one of the hardest decisions in my life over the past 2 months. and its days like today when it hits you the most.....

It feels like half of me is missing.

Ugh!

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 13:55:51 GMT

this week is just not my week. im over it.

or am i?

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 15:26:15 GMT

wow its almost as if i forgot a had a LJ. i never update this anymore.
Im sad to say that summer is officially over. The past few months of no school was nice- it was a good break. I tried to do as much as i could. working at the 99, hanging out with firends after work into the weee hours of the morning, getting to all the apex events i could, going to California with Becca- all in all- it was a good summer and i am going to miss it.
School started yesterday- I had 3 Psychology classes- two in the AM and one at Night..yes, a night class in Camden. Today i had Modern Dance at 9:05am. we didnt dance today, but i am really excited for that class. the teacher seems odd..but cool. im hoping i will be okay with it.::crosses fingers::. the dancing begins on Monday..(i cant wait). so far the social aspect of my college career is going smoothly. i have talked to a few people after each class which is usually something i dont do- i go to class.leave.do homework.... you get the point- but really the people i have talked to seem cool and im looking forward to this semester at Rutgers.
With school starting, i am only working 2 days aweek. i am doing a double shift on Fridays and a double on Sundays. come visit.
I teach at Cherokee monday and wednesday, but the way their rehearsal sched. works out-it gives me time to focus on school and have somewhat of a social life! who woulda thunk it.
I need to have a good semseter- if i dont then..... things will def. suck for me. im hoping this semester is a helluv alot better than this past spring semester.
Apex Auditions are coming and i am super excited! I cant wait to see the turn out of Vets and Rookies- it will be a good time.
Lately i have been obsessed with Dance movies-- Center Stage, Step Up, Honey, Take The Lead...its crazy- i will go on youtube just to watch the ending dance of step up. its awesome-hmmm i really cant wait for the modern class to begin- i also just printed out the Koresh Sched. you better believe my ass will be in that studio some time this Fall.

So i was bored one day- and made afew collages of the summer and people who mean alot to me. ima gonna share them- the Apex one is still in the making i have so many pix. to add on that one-but here is a taste.
Oh! and i went on the apex website- and you can click to watch the video from wildwood- i hooked ya'll up with that from youtube! i felt special. (its in my myspace..drew put it on there for me.)

The girls.

California! <3

Apex Family.

Random Thoughts in a Random Order...

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 22:12:27 GMT

Why wont Itunes let me download Justin Timberlakes "SexyBack"---its making me mad!( i didnt like this song at first..and now i do!)

Cherokee last night was a good time- it was nice to see the girls from indoor as well as all the new kids i didnt meet. we have about...30..which is alot- But i am EXCITED!!

Last night Dal and I watched "Joy Ride" its an old movie that i havnt seen in awhile- i forgot how much i liked it. Paul Walker is HOTT!

My Cousins wedding was fucking awesome!They come home thursday from Hawaii!

i went to Cheese Cake Factory for lunch yesterday with Diane..and i had alil crush on our server....

Im not going to be at Allentown this year :( however i will be in CA. I leave Monday- Melissa dont Fret- i will send you the info!

Buttons by The Pussycat Dolls is another song i like!

Some Hearts by Carrie Underwood is also pretty catchy!

tomorrow i work 5-cl. Thursday i work 10:15-4...yess another Dance Clinic i will be at!

I just listened to Kevin Mckeemans interview- i miss him!

i am going to be so busy this fall im not going to know what to do for myself-and i NEED to keep my grades up..im gtting scurred.

Next fall= Beauty School.

i've decided i am marching sr. corps net summer with Bob from work!

I miss Katie G..cause she is Ugly.

and I miss Tigan...he's not ugly..but could be if he tried....

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 15:29:32 GMT

so i have been doing alot of running around this week and last. along with working i am trying to stay up past my bed time (11:00) to hang out with a few friends...it has worked, however i think i am getting sick- there is all this stuff i want to do, with no time to do it....you'd think the Fall Semester had already started or something!
i finally went to the Dance clinic with Rom-dawg. She kicked my ass- i felt it the next 2 days! but it was awesome. i realized how much i missed the workout, and the people!
I had off of work for the first time without asking for it on Friday, so Kevin Higgins and I went to the shore- it was so much fun and cant wait to do it again- i havnt talked to him in like a year...the season doesnt count cause i didnt talk to him then eigther! it was nice getting to catch up with him. we got burnt...and went in the ocean 3 times after having to numb ourselves!
Saturday i worked, and after work i hung out with christina..i got to her house at 11:30..met up with my firend Jim there...then Keith came over and we actally pulled an all nighter....yes- i went to bed at 6:30 and woke up at 8:30 to be in DE by 10am....
Sunday was a camp- so glad i had off that day and went! it was so fun- got my ass kicked again, but i loved every minute of it! i feel the best part was ending that flag work with "the Ugly.."
and now we are back to working. i got off work Thursday- im hoping to spend the mornig with cindy before she goes to work. then i am going to the dance clinic.
Friday is the Reh. Dinner for my cousins wedding and Saturday is the wedding! i am so excited/nervuos at the same time. i hope i dont fall going down the isle. ahh! so exctied for them! after 9yrs. its about time!
and i think thats it....im going to post some pics. now so enjoy!

This is Matt- I was friends with him at Rutgers last semester and he just graduated! he's a funny guy. i miss his hott self- i feel im going to need to bond with him sometime soon...Matthew.....!!!!!!!!!!!

And here he is again! :)

Stacey, Cindy and Me at Becca's Grad Party

this is my baby cousin Noelle..i did her hair and i am proud of it.

and here she is wearing my clothes.....hmmm.....

okay so they were random...but you liked it!

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 01:11:10 GMT

Today, Amanda Mahoney and Christina Romann came into the 99.
two people i love!

Im working on my sched. for thursday- im trying to work the am shift so i can go to the dance clinic!

we'll see what i can do- pray for me!

PS. Sssailor...i need to talk to you about that dance ditty! :)

Money Money Money!

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 02:55:40 GMT

I have been so busy over the last two weeks i cant even tell you. 99 just opened and i have been working everyday- Open to Close- the pay checks are looking nice...however i can not feel my legs or feet because i am not allowed to sit down there. anyway- i have been MIA- i havnt seen anyone in a while and this week i have a full sched. again...looks like i wont be seeing anyone/talking to them like i use to. I get home and pass out on the floor in my room....and i have to work thursday night again- which means its another dance clinic i will be missing!!! im pretty pissed cause those and the sunday camps are the ones i wanted to go to- i hope it only gets better from here.
Show Me The Money!

Memories

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 21:29:33 GMT

at the moment, everyone is getting ready to go to becca's band banquet. well- i am ready and i am starving, so to hold me over i am eating doritos. I started to laugh to myself because it made me think of my mom. My mom use to LOVE doritos! she would sit in her bed, with a whole bag, and as much as she can take out of the bag, she would eat them all, with crumbs falling on her. it was hillarious and here i am sitting here, doing the same exact thing.

i miss her.

time flies when ur having fun!!

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 22:48:35 GMT

Well now, its been awhile! summer for me is awesome at the moment. its so nice to have so much free time- not working at the day car has been great! a whole month with no job, no school and a break from colorguard felt nice. although those were the things that kept me busy, i still somehow managed to not be at home all the time.

Danielle Sodoti, my friend from highschool Christina, and Diane always manage to steal me away to do something.I saw Jen Kelly, and I even got to hang out with Angie, who i use to take baths with! we went to AC and i met her man toy. I love those two. anyway, yeah- i need to hang out with Stacey and Cindy more- i saw cindy for alittle on..tuesday but its almost as if it didnt count. im not going to get into the concert that was held at the high school. Oh hanging out with my cousin has also been pretty awsesome! She just got a teaching job starting in september- i am so excited for her!

I was supposed to take a summer class. Well, it turned out that i had been hired to work at a new bar and grill opening in Deptford, and the hrs of training start well..tomorrow and it would have conflicted with the summer class. i went to Rutgers to straighten it all out to see that i have to still pay for 1/2 of the bill, which is $588.30- i am really pissed off about this. if anyone would like to contribute to the "Alex Needs to Pay Off A Summer Class That She Is Not Attending Fund" feel free to email me. thanks!

So some of you know, some of you dont know- I met a guy in a bar about 2 1/2 months ago. we talked for hours and i found out he lives in San Francisco. well...I some how "got balls" and I was the one who asked for his number. Long Story Short- We still talk if not every day, every other day and last week he told me that he is coming to jer-z for the 4th of July to spend time with me for a week!!! let me just tell you how excited i am about this!!! i really like him- it sucks that he lives so far away! Jer-z is the best Vacation Spot- Cali to Jerz-let me tell you. its awesome! haha here- is his picture...

So About my J.O.B. tomorrow starts Orientation. I have to dress business casual....idk what im going to wear. any suggestions? im getting nervous because the resturante business is totally different than the day care business-i hope i will like this change/challange. Once i fio my schedule, i'll be able to fio the rest of my summer plans. i really wish Cindy or Chase would be there with me- i love them. Apex Summer Clinics i believe start next week. im not sure what is going on- i wanted to go to them, but i will beable to know once this job stuff is cleared. I am supposed to have a band meeting for the staff at Cherokee, but i cant go to that because of work orientaion. hmmm...well..the free time was fun while it lasted!

Here's to Money!
(Matt- are you happy now?!
Suckkkkka?!)

Sun, 14 May 2006 03:58:48 GMT

i dont feel the need to go into a huge post about how great the season was- its something that cant really be expressed through words. If you saw a show, or you were at a practice, you'd know what i am talking about. The many emotions that ran through me at all times during the weekends from November till now each happened for a reason. These feelings of Anxiety, Excitement, Anger, Confusion, Frustration, and many more became not only my everyday life, but my show.
I Pushed myself for the past 3years working to get to where i was this past apex2006 season- The Unraveling Of Me. I went from being one of the weakest members in 2004. to one of the strongest members in 2006. I cant express how happy i am with the way this season ended. I MAXED out each and every show from beg. to the end, and I had met so many wonderful people in which i hope to keep in touch with over the summer- for the one and only Rachael- I wish you best of luck in CA. i will be thinking of you! and for everyone else who is marching corp. Good Luck!
This season Ended with Laughter, and Tears- Just like every Colorguard season ends. I will never forget how different this season was compaired to the last 2 years. This one acutally had dancing! ;-p ha- but really- it was a change, a change that i enjoyed.
For all those who want pictures from through out the season- i am hooking you up with all of mine!

http://community.webshots.com/user/apexflagline

I cant Believe this season ended one week ago today. Its Cray-z!
The last Conversation about this season i had with someone who means alot to me left me with HUGE Oppritunites, and HUGE decisions that will one day make a differnce to myself and others.

Today is Mothers Day. My family and I along with Cindy are going to be doing the Breast Cancer walk in Philly. To anyone who is a Mom- or hell...all the ladies- Happy Mothers Day (we have the potential..)
Knowing that it is mothers day- I know my mom had the best seat in the stands while watching the colorguard season. and i am sure she is proud of my accomplishments as well as everyone else in the AYS organization.

Thanks Again for ANOTHER awesome season!

hahaha random thinking...

Thu, 11 May 2006 16:47:23 GMT

Let me just say that every time i hear "Had A Bad Day" on the radio...i think of Stacey and Erica singing "Ya had a bad day..your mama cant read..."
I miss them already!

now what?!

Mon, 08 May 2006 19:32:27 GMT

And.I'm.Done.
No Guard.No School.No Work.

What am i going to do with myself?!?!

i think i am going to take a nap....omg a nap!! how excited am i?!?!?!

Updates on the weekend will be posted shortly!!

so much to do, so little time.

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 15:18:50 GMT

So, my weekend had its ups and its downs-
with no Apex this weekend i really just wanted to go out and have a good time with people i dont get to see on the weekend. it was a nice little break, but im ready to spin this weekend.
Friday morning was BABKA BASH 2006- It Was AWESOME! i love cindy and beccca and dal and vicky! we are the funniest people ever with the babka love!
Friday Night was fun- me, christina, diane and eric went to AC for the night- we did a whole lot of Salsa Dancing, gambled and passed out around 4am.

saturday Christina, me and her aunt went bike riding on the board walk- our bikes had baskets- it was great!! i can not tell you how much i love this nice weather!

saturday night i went into old city with danielle. She wanted to go out, so i said i'd go with her. it was a gooood time! we met some people, they bought us drinks- let me just say that i am a fraking awesome friend. :)

Sunday was easter- Dal gave me and Becca a treasure hunt because every year we always have an egg hunt..but we couldnt have that with Beamer cause he would find all the eggs and eat all the candy. anyway-it was cute! me and becca delivered flowers and a huge easter balloon to adelphia since she had to work. she was surprised.

Okay so here is where the weekend got alittle sucky. we are eating easter dinner and i was talking to my cousin Jenny about how school is not going so well for me this semester and that i have 2 weeks to bring my grades from all F's to a passing score. My GPA sucks and im stressing out. so then i got talking about how what i would like to do is go to Cosmotology School and while going there be a part time student here at Rutgers so its not like i am leaving College for good- i would like to take my time and focus on on subject and pass with an A then have 4 classes and fuck up. thats what i want to do. My dad heard this and shit a brick- he is against me going to Cosmotology school he thinks i will not get anywhere with it. Right now...with the grades i am getting at school, im not happy. i cry every night. and i am so stressed out i cant take it. i was upset about how i get no money at work, so yesterday as i was driving i thought to myself, im giving my two weeks in..if i do it now then i have 2weeks to find something. instead iof me just saying that i need to find something before i leave- i'd be there a year later. so i did it. i handed my 2weeks in and my last day is May 2, 2006. Then, last night i filled an application out online for Empire Beauty School located in Cherry Hill. I recieved a phone call this morning and i have an interview there on thursday. We'll see. My dad and Dal know nothing about this, but i think its what i need to do.

today i am going to make a phone call. the end.

Babka=Love..words to live by.

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 15:35:18 GMT

~Ohio was a good time- i perfomed an awesome show at prelims- watched finals (as i wished i was performing in it) hung out with cin alot that trip- i missed her. Figured out that i am going to into cosmotology school once my sched. allows.

~I have a friend at school who i just found out marched Blackwatch in 1995....i was really excited because she knew about guard and it was one less person i had to explain how much it means to me! she might be coming to wildwood!

~Good talks with Krista Last night- Holding that thought!

~Tried to figure out what classes i am going to take, but it didnt work- i still got nuttin.

~School...sucks- i got yet another test score back today that i am not happy with! im just getting use to the fact that i cant pass anything. (not cool)

~i neeeeeeed a new job- the day care sucks- i get paid shit...and change it!

~Babka=Love; Got Babka?; Babka Bash 2double06 tomorrow- 6am sharp- Taking Babka and Krisssshiikikiki orders...now!

~my ipod is pissing me off

~i watched Titanic last night with my aunt and vicky and thought it was the funniest movie i had ever seen! i saw it 15times in the theater, and lastnight was the first time seeing it since then. hahahah! it was a goood time!

~Shawnee isnt going to Wildwood- Sucks! but alot are going to come and be my fans! :) i love fans! and ima girl! haha suckas!

~im going to AC tomorrow night- first time back since the bday- anyone wanna come??!

~for the past 3weeks i have heard something about California, or San Francisco (ITS A SIGN!!!) and im realizing that i really want to go back to cali this summer, but when?!

~Jenny and Mark's Wedding July 15th

~we leave for Poland as a family on July 17th

~I am slowly starting to fio what i want to do with my life....